My blog tagline is “Keeping the Home While Keeping it Real” well I’m going to get a little real here… I’ve been struggling. Name an area of your life: home, children, marriage, spiritual, financial, health, emotional…. I’ve been struggling in them all.
Like many mom’s, I have been able to keep it together. I can get my house cleaned before guests arrive, I do my makeup and hair before I leave the house, I even blog about my recent organizing projects, recipes and homeschooling plans. But if I’m going to be real and honest with you, like my tagline suggests; I’ve been a mess on the inside.
I can’t pin a specific time when it started, but it’s been snowballing…
The anxiety, depression, stress and sadness.
Something was wrong. Very wrong… in my heart.
For a long time I’ve assumed that the unorganized house was causing the anxiety,
I’ve assumed that my critical habits as a wife were causing the depression,
My busy schedule, work-from-home life, and over-commitments were causing the stress,
And my desire for a better life was causing the sadness…
The reality is:
The state of my heart was the CAUSE.
My unorganized house, critical attitude toward my husband, feeling overwhelmed and wanting something different? Those were just the SYMPTOMS of a messed up heart.
Sounds pretty hopeless, huh?
Luckily it is not. Thankfully God found a way to show me what was wrong.“I pray that your hearts will be flooded with light so that you can understand the confident hope he has given to those he called–his holy people who are his rich and glorious inheritance.” Eph. 1:18
**Come back tomorrow for the rest of “I’ve Had A Messed Up Heart”. I’m excited to share part 2 of my story.**